Constant Vigilance!

These Days
Rascal Flats
(Steele, Wells, Robson)

Hey baby, is that you? Wow, your hair got so long!
Yeah, yeah, I love it, I really do.
Norma Jean ain't song we'd sing in the car driving through town.
Top down, makin' the rounds, checkin' out the bands on Doheny Avenue.
Yeah, life throws you curves but you learn to swerve.
Me, I swung and I missed, and the next thing you know,
I'm into reminessin' dreamin' ol dreams, wishin' ol wishes.
Like you would be back again.

I wake up and teardrops, they fall down like rain.
I put on that old song, we danced to, and then,
I head off to my job: guess not much has changed.
Punch the card, head for home, check the 'phone, just in case.
Go to bed, dream of you:
That's what I'm doin' these days.
Yeah, that's what I'm doin'.

Someone told me, after college, you ran off to Vegas.
You married a rodeo cowboy, why, that ain't the girl I knew.
Me, I've been a few places, mostly here and there one or twice.
Still sortin' out life but I'm doin' all right,
Yeah, it's good to see you too.
Well, hey girl, you're late, and those planes, they don't wait.
But if you ever come back around this sleepy old town,
Promise me, you'll stop in to see an old friend, and until then:

I wake up and teardrops, they fall down like rain.
I put on that old song, we danced to, and then,
I head off to my job: guess not much has changed.
Punch the card, head for home, check the 'phone, just in case.
Go to bed, dream of you:
That's what I'm doin' these........

I wake up and teardrops, they fall down like rain.
I put on that old song, we danced to, and then,

I wake up and teardrops, they fall down like rain.
I put on that old song, we danced to, and then,

I wake up and teardrops, they fall down like rain.
I put on that old song, we danced to, and then,

I'm Too Sexy
Right Said Fred

I'm too sexy for my love too sexy for my love
Love's going to leave me

I'm too sexy for my shirt too sexy for my shirt
So sexy it hurts
And I'm too sexy for Milan too sexy for Milan
New York and Japan

And I'm too sexy for your party
Too sexy for your party
No way I'm disco dancing

I'm a model you know what I mean
And I do my little turn on the catwalk
Yeah on the catwalk on the catwalk yeah
I do my little turn on the catwalk

I'm too sexy for my car too sexy for my car
Too sexy by far
And I'm too sexy for my hat
Too sexy for my hat what do you think about that

I'm a model you know what I mean
And I do my little turn on the catwalk
Yeah on the catwalk on the catwalk yeah
I shake my little touche on the catwalk

I'm too sexy for my too sexy for my too sexy for my

'Cos I'm a model you know what I mean
And I do my little turn on the catwalk
Yeah on the catwalk on the catwalk yeah
I shake my little touche on the catwalk

I'm too sexy for my cat too sexy for my cat
Poor pussy poor pussy cat
I'm too sexy for my love too sexy for my love
Love's going to leave me

And I'm too sexy for this song

Ten Rounds With Jose Cuervo
Tracy Byrd

I walked in and the band just started
The singer couldn't care a tune in a bucket
Was on a mission to drown her memory but
I thought no way with all this rukus

But after one round with Jose Cuervo
I caught my boots tapping along with the beat
And After two rounds with Jose Cuervo
The band was sounding pretty darn good to me

Then some stranger asked me to dance
And i reviled to her my two left feet
Said Don't get me wrong, im glad you asked,
But tonight's about beating an old memory

Then after Three rounds with Jose Cuervo
I let her lead me out on the floor
And after Four rounds with Jose Cuervo
I was showing off moves never seen before

Well, round five or round six
I forgot what I came to forget
After Round seven, Or was it eight?
I bought a round for the whole dang place

And after nine rounds with Jose Cuervo
They were counting me out and i was about to give in
Then after ten rounds with Jose Cuervo
I lost count and started drinking again

One round with Jose Cuervo
I went two rounds
Three rounds

No posting in a long time, ne? I have to say, most of the time the posts are just angst (when they're not song lyrics). Well, what if I don't want to angst anymore? What about that?

Actually, no. I've worked to hard to become a high level angster. I would hate to lose that now. All I want to put here, though, is something Yeff said...

This occurred to me last night. In the movie Moulin Rouge, Edwin McGregor says "Love is like oxygen..." This simile has deeper, more profound (in a way) meanings than just "All you need is love." Anybody who's studied basic human physiology is aware that oxygen is actually toxic to the human body, and that too much of it can cause injury and/or death. So too is love; it's inherently toxic, and too much of it can and will kill you. Just a thought.

Also, I noticed to my mother that two years for a relationship doesn't seem like a long time around here. Why is that? Is it because we're all careful, or because we're all lazy? Maybe it's because the majority of us don't date, so it just seems like that's the norm because the only people compelled to couple off are the people who would date for two years or so. Well, Ben and Martha have to carry the torch now....

8 months. w00t. Again, a cruel irony. I think the next time I get myself into a mess, I mean relationship, if there is a next time, I will remeber when it starts, not when it ends.

So, I've been thinking about the past a lot recently, mainly because around this time of year the date catches up to me and I realize a whole 'nother year has slipped through my fingers. I had that realization in a most jolting and disturbing way today, i.e. on the 11th when I asked, "Is this March?" I honestly had no idea, and that scares me. But the scarrier part is that my birthday is a Tuesday this year, which bites, but that we have school instead of spring break. And if there's anything I don't want to do, it's spend my birthday the same way I've spent my other school days. That way being with that horrible feeling in my stomach and no appetite. I hate force feeding myself. It's unplesant. But I doubt it's going to go away until I do something about the source of my problem, and I don't know if I can do that. It's like an obssession, and I don't want that. I read everything over and over again, as if somehow it would help me, but it doesn't. And whenever I get outdone, it's all I can do not to physically cry. If only... No, I'm not going into "if only"s. I'm trying my best to get uninvolved, most noticably by throwing everything into what was previously the slightest of crushes on Julian. But it doesn't help.

At times like this, I'm reminded of Mulan. "No matter how the wind howls, the mountain cannot bow to it." Well, I refuse to bow to some dinky wind. I will be the rock!

janus9 05: what's rock-solid one day may not be the next.
janus9 05: love isn't.
janus9 05: no matter what happens, we're going to love them.
janus9 05: and that makes us the rock.
janus9 05: and not whatever's getting swept away.
janus9 05: so that when they have nothing else
janus9 05: they have us. the rock. we, who have always been there.
janus9 05: with our love.

Thank you Andy.

Now, I will NOT be sad on my birthday, or there will be killings. I will NOT judge my entire day on who does/does not say "happy birthday." I WILL remember my own birthday this year. AND! I will NOT stick my hand in a blender. Carry on.

No One Else On Earth
Wynonna

I’ve been a rock and I’ve got my fences
I never let them down
When it comes to love, I keep my senses
I don’t get kicked around
I shivered once you broke into my soul
The damage is done now I'm out of control
How did you get to me?

No one else on earth could ever hurt me
Break my heart the way you do
No one else on earth was ever worth it
No one can love me like
No one can love me like you

You can make me want you any time you want to
You’re burnin’ me alive
I can’t deny you even when I catch you
Weavin’ a weak alibi
‘Cause when the night falls you make me forget
Your love is killing me and it ain’t over yet
How did you get to me?

No one else on earth could ever hurt me
Break my heart the way you do
No one else on earth was ever worth it
No one can love me like
No one can love me like you

I shivered once you broke into my soul
The damage is done now I'm out of control
How did you get to me?

No one else on earth could ever hurt me
Break my heart the way you do
No one else on earth was ever worth it
No one can love me like
No one can love me like you

No one else on earth could ever hurt me
Break my heart the way you do
No one else on earth was ever worth it
No one can love me like
No one can love me like you

Someday Out of the Blue
Elton John

Someday out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
As if our love were new
Someday we can start again someday soon

Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
Love sweet afternoons
Still capture me

Someday out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
As if our love were new
Someday we can start again someday soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us
We had it all
And watched it slip away
Where are we now
Not where we want to be
Those hot afternoons
Still follow me

Someday out of the blue
Maybe years from now or tomorrow night
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
AS if we always knew
Someday we would live again someday soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us

Here comes the night
Here come the memories
Lost in your arms
Down in the foreign fields
Not so long ago
Seems like eternity
Love sweet afternoons
Still capture me

Someday out of the blue
Maybe years from now or tomorrow night
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
AS if we always knew
Someday we would live again someday soon

Someday out of the blue
In a crowded street or a deserted square
I´ll turn and I´ll see you
As if our love were new
Someday we can start again someday soon

I still believe
I still put faith in us

Against All Odds
Phil Collins

How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
You´re the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
´Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You´re the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
There´s just an empty space
There´s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

Take a good look at me now
There´s just an empty space

And you coming back to me
Is against all the odds
And that´s what I got to take

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There´s so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You´re the only one
Who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
There´s just an empty space
There´s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

Take a good look at me now
There´s just an empty space

But to wait for you is all I can do
And that´s what I´ve got to face

Take a good look at me now
´Cause I´ll still be standing there
And you coming back to me
Is against all the odds
And that´s what I got to take